Oh man

I am the biggest asshole today and angry with the people who are garbage to my mind and attack me with Illness and disease in my imagination. I am not Jesus, I am just an Elaine who doesn’t like the onslaught of data on a daily basis that overcomes antipsychotics and meds thst should help a person like me. why is the whole Bible in my brain and why is everything always cheating and superior to me? Why am I such a loser, and because I’m a loser I become a worse loser and all the damnations of good intentions and worry just cause me to fall deeper and deeper. Fuck these things that trouble me. The onslaught of panic that causes me to seek help again and again and never get it, just sick literally and mentally

Published by: Elaine M

I’m a magical 44 year old who bargains she will experience joy and happiness someday and has aversion to the great pain and suffering from the past, who longs for the enlightenment of all in a gentle and loving way.

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