In the past I was a fornicator, liar, cheater, manipulator, thief, but also a person who had faith and integrity, tried to please everyone, a Robin Hood of sorts, and had good taste. I was mentally ill and tried to obey the laws I could especially the laws I agreed on. I did my best to avoid every single downfall and do the right thing, however I always failed to do the right thing, ie would be raped if I didn’t agree to sex and would want to stay home and someone would show up to tempt me into making the same mistakes over and over. My life has been a scenario of torture and in exchange for salvation I got voices after voices, psychosis in exchange for real relationships I liked to think I could have had. I didn’t have them. Cold as ice.