I keep getting infections

Every week. I broke my glasses, I’m angry, sad, and feel like the whole world conspires against me. I don’t know what side I’m on or they are but the meaningless events regarding them in my head leave no clue to any communication that must be occurring. Except the stink and the suck. Because I can’t consent to sex, and can’t enjoy it, my boyfriends energy is off and I panic when he advances and think twice when I advance, even though I’ve had sex thousands of times in my life, there is nothing and no intimacy in my life, except for naps that I’m paying for with the constant arguments and autism. But that’s what I need so I guess I get it. I need positive energy to counteract an illness that might be spiritual or cured by spirituality so I consider this toxic that the bipolar nature of my world isn’t giving me any happiness on the upswing. There is no happiness ever. Only peace from drugs that have no effect

Published by: Elaine M

I’m a magical 44 year old who bargains she will experience joy and happiness someday and has aversion to the great pain and suffering from the past, who longs for the enlightenment of all in a gentle and loving way.

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