Ugh, mad as hell. I can’t talk, I guess I’ll just go to bed. I talked it out with a friend. Wanna lash out, I have no restraint and the levels of nuts that go on up here are overwhelming to me, my state is horrible, I’m such a fuck up every day. It is better than ever, yet I can’t go on like this. I look like shit to my boss I’m sure. No idea if there’s anyone shittier than me in the whole universe yet I have no restraint or awareness of myself at the moments that matter the most.