It was perhaps the most ugly audial assault you can imagine, determined to stay sober and behaving when I got out without all of the glorification of prostitution, hard chemicals, and money. It got to where that life seemed like a clever tolerable decision. The brainwashing was harsh but I survived it, even on lactalose 2 weeks for ammonia levels that could lead to wet brain and I adjusted my insulin for the event that now suspected pancreatic problems did lead to transition from type 2 to type 1. And I broke free. My constant migraine and heart palpitations not being treated by the folks of another religion, caused me to bust open with acute withdrawal symptom telltale signs, and demand fir the er. I did tell the ambulance driver my issue, and I was baker acted 8 days, to emerge=well
However they did not treat the issue. I do have a cardiac issue and I do have problems that could cause me to fall and die. They were not treating them and now they have wasted all my time again there with only 2 aa meetings and no opportunity for growth and the main reason I was there was fir healing of the repeated falling sensation, falls, siezures, and heart palpitations. My doc found the problem- but I need to call him and get help. I can do that on Monday.
The problem with me is that I do not learn to stop with experience. I do not learn to stop without meetings. Yes I needed detoxification, but seriously my willingness to work a program should have been enough. They held me there against my will while I went through repeated stress related illnesses. I need a spiritual solution.